5.27.2009

the day that never comes

I hate looking at social networking sites. I don't want to know what everyone else is doing. it makes me jealous (of what? it's not like I even like these people) , and that makes me feel foolish. 

Travis's birthday is Thursday. I don't know what to do to make him smile. I wish I could buy him a wedding band or some useful tool he wouldn't get for himself. clothing? 

today I went for my 6 week check-up. like I said, needless; I all ready knew I was okay. I did get birth control, and she wrote me a prescription for an antidepressant used for those also suffering from anxiety. It's called buspirone, and while it is not indicated for OCD, because I haven't had many problems associated with it within the last few years it might be the thing. however, the prescription is only for three months, and the effects will take several weeks. by the time I'll get used to it I'll run out. also, I don't think Travis approves of the meds; to him it seems that my issues are just a matter of self-control. I might be misrepresenting his opinion, but he hasn't indicated otherwise. I think I'll wait for the birth control to take effect and go from there.

I want to be skinny again. 

been working on the living room; took the base molding down, removed the old curtain rods, now sanding down the plaster I used to fix the holes. then: paint!

2 comments:

Kearby said...

when is a good time to call you? I can usually only answer during the day because I work evenings and nights. please let me know. if you want, email me. kearby.bridges @ gmail.com.

Annie the Corrupt said...

any time during the day. I get up at 4:30-5 and stay awake. If I'm not painting or working on the yard, I will definitely pick up.